it's saddening, it feels empty not having ash and nic play behind my back.

though our current band put together for this sunday is adequate + one music prodigy, i'm at a loss not knowing how to fit into the rythmn, perhaps we lack that chemistry.

it's upsetting, now everytime we practise as a band, i'll be reminded of nic, beause she just isnt there to whack me when i turn over. urrrggghhh.