i guess we needed someone to whip us back into place. and you did just that. individually, and technically, all of us has grown tremendously, playing stuff we couldn't even imagine playing back then. together, we are the worst we've ever been, we've been so detached from one another, we no longer understand each other, and have what it takes to play together.

are we really musicians or christians first?
indeed we were christians before we became musicians.

i owe several people an apology,
ash, im sorry i walked out on you. and yes, i chose to do it out of selfish reasons, i've been so muddled in my personal affairs, i figured that you would do fine on your own. i'd wished you talked to me abt these things the way we used to, and i'd wished you had held me accountable for that.

nic, im sorry too. thinking back, i made you several promises before you left, and i didn't keep them. in some ways, i withdrew myself, every time i played with the band, i felt empty when you're no longer behind my back swinging your bass at me. and while i was grumbling abt all the things back home, i should have known how hard a time you were having adjusting, after all i've been in that same position before. i'm so sorry, i'd wished we had talked abt that too.

as for gbof, i think we've found all our faults slapped on our face. there's a lot to make right, not just with god but also one another, and even more, our homes.

pong's also right, i can't be driven by guilt.