this works more for now, just for now. it's been a while since school's been out, and i've stopped designing literally, it's high time to start again.

oh yes! totally awesome!
gorgeous set design.
i love the chandelier!
and the music, was so captivating.

i would actually love very much to be around next weekend.
it's a tragic end.
but oh well.
people would remember how good we were in history.

i'm just going to plug my ipod with more emo songs.

hello! i've decided, i need some positive change! starting with this layout.

alice is coming back from wonderland tmr! (: i really miss her, it's been slightly more than a week, but it certainly feels as though she has been away for a long time.


dear sarah,
yes you're quite right. why are you always right? also, i love being superwoman, but even superwoman feels not so super at times.

upside+

my purple room is coming quite lovely together, now that i got my needles, patti, spray paint, and pets, im going to finish up. im quite happy with the way it worked out.

also,
i passed my BTT(E) booked the earliest BTT, which seems quite a far bit from now. & started studying for the FTT. yes yes, i want to clear it soon.

aiyyyeee, how am i supposed to be okay if im constantly being reminded? i do realise, time is running fast, and timeout is almost over.

earlier yesterday, freddy called.

it brought me back to those happy times back in secondary school and the silly things we did for cheap thrills.

there was once we tried to make a rocket out of tin can and carbon we scarped of sparklers. we lit it by some canal. hahhaa, but not only did the rocket never shoot up, it caught into wild flames.

we fed our fan, ashley, by shooting m&ms at it. we kept a group pet, scrumpee bear! which we bought for some charity fun raising thing that was going on in school. right now, none of us knows where he is AT ALL, literally no one, i think the last we remember of it was when someone brought it home for a bathe (must have been either shaun or me).

during the scrumpee charity drive, we bought 20 red helium ballons, tied them onto a white shirt which we scribbled 4b rawkz or something like that. and we released it into the sky, watching it fly higher and higher fading away into oblivion.

our class favorite physical activity was captains ball, all we ever played during physical education was cball. we used to come back from our run fast, beat other classes to the street soccer court, and then our whole class would play cball together, which was kinda fun since everyone participated.

origami was quite big with our class then, we used to up the free propaganda magazines the school gave out and make all sorts of animals with them and display them on our desks. our favourite piece (or maybe just yiwen's) would have been the tortise, which we called "xiao wu gui wan ba dan" (small bad turtle, or something like that)

i remember those healthy tuesdays, our group marked. we used to bring snacks to school to share and munch on during classes. which is bad, real bad, like unhealthy bad. so on tuesdays, we would bring healthy snacks to classes, lol, i would certainly have brought the happy grapes(yup, that was where the happy grapes nonsense started). and the rest would bring fruits, and some irritating bugger(which i think is fio) would bring this horrid green veggie juice, yuck yuck yuck. so gross. i'd refuse to drink it, and they'll leave a cup on my desk just to irritate me.

there was this one time, a bunch of us sat down in the canteen, staring at the television (which was clearly off) everyone who walked by, got tricked into believing that the tele was actually on, lol, they looked at us then the tele, and then at us, and in disbelief the tele again. till they realised it was a trick.

hahhaa. all these incidences except the last one happened during our final year, it must have been the best of our days. (: funny, it's been a couple of years since, seeing how all of us has changed so much, it's almost as though we never knew the people we used to be.

life them was a lot simpler. whenever i look at my churchies, i become envious of how simple their life is. it seems that everything around them is so trival. but then again, aren't we all having a whale of a time being this age?

everyone knows i feel about my dad, it's certainly no secret. i do realise that someday, eventually, i will have to stop lying to my dad. sometimes i'd wish he'll just let me be, so i'll feel a lot less guilty. up to this point, i've been lying to him my whole life.


nuggggh! i always get this way when a b'day or some important festive is coming up.

sarah, i hate it knowing you're right, it's interesting, i've never thought of it that way before. i've always been very rational and practical, i find reasons excuses to justify my (what i think is right)decisions. it's been working well for me for so long, i don't see why i should go against that now.

although sometimes i do wish that i'd be less level-headed and more impulsive like you.

i'm actually quite surprised by how well my friends know me, they're actually quite spot on.

no, i'm not okay.
and it's more than the purple fumes that are getting to my head.
i've pretty much abandoned this place for a pal on gmail.

they say, fear is not real, it's all in your head. do you think that it applies for problems as well? maybe we make mountains out of mole holes.

i'm starting to like my house more since we've got magdeline around to help, the place is way much cleaner, and i FINALLY have SALT & PEPPER in my house! i'm starting to wonder if she's getting bored. there's really not much to do around here, like how often can you clean the house clean clean.